Bending Reality; or Storyteller's Delight, Dungeonmaster's Lament!

This Dragonborn is doing
quite well...

So I sat down with a friend this weekend, who is a writer, and is my biggest inspiration for attempting to break into the world of writing with Unrelenting Force (two shout-outs there, 1. to my friend who is an amazing writer, and 2. to Skyrim, with which I've been slaying dragons for the past 4 days).  I find myself once again looking at someone's work and saying "how do you do it!?".  The ease with which she mixes mythical concepts with time honored philosophical tradition boggles the mind.  My attempts to introduce philosophy into my story telling have been failed exploits to be sure.

I think my biggest adversary in attempting some sort of philosophical incursion in storytelling has been that my main mode of storytelling has been Dungeons and Dragons.  Not that D&D hinders the ability to tell a story, not even close, but the story is not just mine, it also belongs to the players.

Here comes the theory....

Imagine if you will someone trying to explain to you, as a character in game that you are not just a character, and not just a player, you are both.  That these people you've created as your avatars in these imaginary worlds are part of your psyche that are every bit as real as you are because you have created them.  Not to cater to the hopelessly lonely or the mentally unstable, not to say "by playing you obviously have multiple personalities", but an attempt to explain that you are not literally a dragon-slaying defender of justice or all powerful arcanist, but that parts of you ARE these things, and therefore you are these things.  That when you a real person, create a representation of yourself to interact with the representations of other real people, those representations become real through belief and action, and that you actually become (one might even say ascend to) a metaphysical being, a multifaceted persona with multiple representations of yourself, you become a walker of worlds.

...these ones seem to be giving me
some trouble.

Now, This is a concept that is fraught with real and imaginary consequences based on personality traits that manifest in players when they participate.  For the sake of argument we'll equate these to a familiar eastern symbol, Yin and Yang.

With Yin you are a unstable mental anomaly cast into a sea of change and chaos, surrounded constantly by ever changing faces, none of which you believe are real, and therefore none of which you trust, and it shows by your actions against them.  Your focus is on survival, pushing out external forces, and protecting your integrity (physically in the case of your character's survival, morally by not being swayed to take action your character would condone) in the face adversity.

With Yang you are a powerful, extra planar being may experience a hundred lifetimes, and learn REAL life lessons, high adventure and true companionship and camaraderie with others.  Your focus is on fostering growth, harnessing change for the benefit of everyone and protecting the integrity of everyone and everything around you, by seeing it through the the coming adversity.

The alternative to these is you take it way too seriously, lose your grip on reality, buy a sword from the state renaissance fair and stand in your yard brandishing your blade at those who seek to encroach upon your lands.  But let's just stick with Yin and Yang for the time being.

This is what game night
must seem like to my friends...

The interesting thing about these personality types is that not only are they constantly at odds with one another, they are two sides of the same coin.  These aren't classic fantasy representations of "Good" and "Evil", but representations of a person's agenda and to which way the lean.  A Person with Yang focus may leave a defeated enemy alive so that that person has an opportunity to live, learn, and change.  Someone with a focus in Yin might kill a defeated enemy, to protect what they stand for from ever being threatened again.  And the best part is that like the player's real selves and character selves, though they may lean more to one side or another, they inherently embody both of these traits simultaneously!

...Ok, the positive and negative influence thing kind of got me off topic.  Can you see my enthusiasm?  Let's bring it on back...

If someone is mentally healthy and can perceive it, there is a lot of healthy things that they can experience through storytelling (I shy away from "role-playing" because of the carnal connotations...though I'm sure they can be cathartic too).

And what did my players say when I presented them with this possibility?  When I designed a game to show them and declare, "You are eternal champions one and all.  You have lived a hundred lifetimes in a hundred worlds and the time has come for you to open your eyes, realize that you are not just mere people sitting around a table drinking mountain dew and eating prepared finger foods, more then opportunistic rogues and raging barbarians, you are all of these things and more! You walk the worlds as travelers of the planes, transcending simple rules and words to become metaphysical beings in touch with creation and spread across the universe!"?

...They weren't ready. Neither was I... 

...Well I suppose it was my fault really.  I wasn't as strong a storyteller as I should've been.  The players seemed bored so I hurried things along, leaving out some key figures to the equation of "you are you, in game and out" because I thought they would catch on.  They didn't.  When I made it glaringly obvious some of them gave glazed over looks, others rolled their eyes.   In the end they killed my in story manifestation of myself, all creation fell away and at the moment they were to take control and rebuild it, said "so who's running the next one?"

...this is what game night is to me.

I guess that's a way of rebuilding.  Maybe they saw me as one of those people I fear, the ones that lose touch and greet everyone with "Hail" and "How art Thou?" (but when not at a Ren fair).  I think I expected too much.  In fact I know I did.  Now, I cater more to the players, who just want a sandbox to run around in as heroes, or anti-heroes.  They fight foes and do legendary deeds, and it's good, because now that I know the limits of what players expect and what I can tweak to challenge them.  At the end of the day my players, my friends, want to play a game, not "be enlightened", but that's fine and definitely fun!

But in my heart, part of me waits, and it's head swims with stars and worlds and wonder.  It waits for a time and an outlet to show that we can all unlock the secrets of the universe when we work together and that truly we can achieve anything with the power of thought and faith.  I was privileged enough to get clued in on the book my friend is working on this weekend.  And that part of me cheered, out loud, and I began to write.  I took myth and remolded it.  Like playing with matchbox cars, they were my houses and streets, and I drove like a madman with a pen and sheets of paper.  When I was done, I reread it, laughed out loud, and closed the notebook.

Inspired again. Fus-Ro-Dah!